middle of August already!!

Well it's the middle of August already and I have yet to fully commit to this competition. Maybe it's lack of money, lack of time without kiddos, lack of energy, lack of ....... well I know it's not because of the lack of excuses. We are getting ready for another camping trip and as I pack I am always reminded of my lack of wardrobe due to my not wanting to shop for me because let's face it shopping for a "fat girl" is not fun. Nothing "looks right" or "feels right" and then there's the whole thought of "when I lose the weight I'll splurge on clothes because then I'll disserve it." Oh well such is life and this is the hand I was dealt. Maybe when the kids are in school again and I start spending time out of the house doing things at the school or at the MOPs meetings then I will busy enough to not snack on junk and that will help???? We will see........